Sunday, December 28, 2008

'A New Chapter of Life'

It has been 15 long hard days of pain. Learning to deal with pain is something all of us will experience sometime in life. Today is the start of a new chapter of my life. I want to thank all my amazing close friends for the help and support. I do believe people are placed into our lives for a reason although they may not be who they appeared they were at the begining it is for a reason. That reason does come with pain.
Some people like myself have a inner person that gives everything they have to the people that enter their lives. THIS IS NEVER APPRECIATED. is used as a sign of weakness. I/we have to learn to take care of ourselves more then another person as we are the most important person in our lives. Loyalty, honesty and faithfulness is most important when you open your life to someone. If they don't have that trait your road is leading down a dead end street. That leads to the pain.
You start to doubt yourself as a person and reevaluate your life, some good some bad. I felt all of this is the last 15 days. I now know that I am a solid good person. Although there are things that I need to work on for myself as we are not perfect. I do know that I do give 150% of myself to people and I need to cut that down to at least 80% this leaves more room for myself.
With the bad comes the good. It is strange how that happens but through my pain amazing things happened career wise that I guess are also signs that I am a good person and this is a new chapter of my life. We cannot change people we can only guide them and help them with our knowledge and experience. People have to want to change before anything can move forward.
This has been the worst holiday of my life and the most painful. This has also been one of the most trying times for me as a person. I do know this. 2009 is going to be a very special year for me as it is time for me to put that 150% into myself. There is no stopping me now. May all of you find what you are looking for in life.
One thing I can say for sure. The most loyalty and respect you will ever get is from a pet. I have found that with my little angel Stella Blue. Although she had to suffer my pain as well she also kept me off the path of destruction. It is amazing that something that weighs 11 pounds has so much power. I love you Stella

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Life Changing Experience

Tonight is Sunday December 21st 2008. The past 8 days have been some of the hardest days of my life to deal with. I have been in the most pain I have ever experienced. Personal issues are always hard to deal with. I wanted to share a very special experience that I had tonight.
Jesus Christ Superstar has been an inspiration for me ever since my parents took me to see the Broadway play back in the late 70's. It was that performance that truly started me in music. That was how my band was born with my three brothers. I was raised on Jesus Christ Superstar one of the most amazing Rock Operas ever created. With all my pain in the past 8 days I wasn't sure I would attend the show that was being performed in Beverly Hills with the original Jesus Mr. Ted Neeley. with the tickets I had purchased about a month ago. A couple of days ago I reached out to a friend to see if I would be able to meet Ted Neeley and interview him. I was granted the interview that day. This was now my excuse to make sure I attend the show. 5:30 this evening when I arrived at the theatre Ted was not there yet. I was waiting back stage with a full group of crew and cast. When the backstage door opened and Ted walked in he came directly toward me as if he knew me. I have never met him before or had any communications with him so this threw me off how he knew who I was. He said my name and invited me in his dressing room to talk. At this point I was trying to keep my composure and emotions under control due to the Pain I have been through in the past few days. I was now sitting back stage with a person who had inspired my life creatively and this I can say with certainty. Ted pulled up a chair and sat face to face with me and I started my interview. We talked about all things pertaining to the success and the fascination with JCS after all these years. Ted had asked me about some personal things about my life so I knew that he had done a little research on me as well. Ted sensed something was bothering me and a certain question and his answer triggered my emotions to run ramped. He then reached out and grabbed me and held me with such passion a calm feeling came over my entire being. He had such great words of encouragement and wisdom that I immediately felt at ease. This was a very special moment for me.

When Ted was called to the stage I knew this night was going to be extra special for me. The show began and I felt as if I was the only person in the entire theatre. His performance and the performance of the entire cast was truly amazing. I didn't want it to end. After the show I waited with my friends for Ted as he told me to leave my personal things in his dressing room as he wanted to see me after the show. When he came out he gave me another hug with the same passion as he did earlier. We talk for a bit and I left with my friends. I know that Ted is now a special person that will be part of my life. This was the start of something creatively special as well. When I returned home tonight I still had the same empty feelings that I have been having all week but with a brighter outlook. Tonight was what I needed to help me on the road to repair. Mr. Ted Neeley has performed the role of Jesus most of his life and has truly been able to transpire a very special relationship and connection with everyday people. He has touched me with his presence, his grace and personality and I truly feel blessed. Thank you Ted for a very special life changing experience.

(Double Click on the photo to view larger and see the passion in Teds eyes)



Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Holiday Sadness


HOW I'M TRULY FEELING THIS TIME OF THE YEAR :(

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Taking Advantage of Bob

See what happens when you eat too late at night. The plan was to set out to Papoos on Riverside drive. Holly was in town for the day and we love the food there. Unfortunately they close at 8pm so close by was Bobs Big Boy. Lindsay and Holly had too much milk shake and onion rings and took advantage of Bob. Good thing he was stiff all night


Monday, December 1, 2008

'SILENT NIGHT BLOODY NIGHT' is here!!!!


After a long week of editing 'SILENT NIGHT BLOODY NIGHT' is up and ready for viewing. Just in time for the Holidays. Check out this short written/directed and edited by myself starring Steve Valentine and Lindsay Crolius featuring Shelly Martinez. Go to www.silentnightbloodynight.com 'What do you want for Christmas?'